--- product_id: 540731058 title: "Counting the Cost" price: "£0.62" currency: GBP in_stock: true reviews_count: 8 url: https://www.desertcart.co.uk/products/540731058-counting-the-cost store_origin: GB region: United Kingdom --- # Counting the Cost **Price:** £0.62 **Availability:** ✅ In Stock ## Quick Answers - **What is this?** Counting the Cost - **How much does it cost?** £0.62 with free shipping - **Is it available?** Yes, in stock and ready to ship - **Where can I buy it?** [www.desertcart.co.uk](https://www.desertcart.co.uk/products/540731058-counting-the-cost) ## Best For - Customers looking for quality international products ## Why This Product - Free international shipping included - Worldwide delivery with tracking - 15-day hassle-free returns ## Description desertcart.com: Counting the Cost (Audible Audio Edition): Jill Duggar, Jill Duggar, Derick Dillard, Craig Borlase, Simon & Schuster Audio: Books Review: Well-Written and Impactful - As a casual watcher of the Duggars it seemed there was always something beneath the veneer of positivity. When Jill and Derick broke away from the family and were seemingly ostracized despite her being a victim of abuse at the hands of a family member who- by all accounts- seemed to be welcome among the family, it seemed ever the more strange. In this book you get a deep insight into the innermost thoughts and emotions of a daughter initially desperate to please her parents and maintain the family image who suddenly realizes the family has little regard for her as an individual. The abuse she suffered as a child is unfortunately- according to the book- compounded by emotional and mental abuse at the hands of her father. Bent on garnering more fame and more money at the expense of his children, her father put her in an un-winnable situation. Rejoin the family fold and hold her tongue or speak the truth and be ostracized within the family and portrayed as a money-hungry misfit. I don’t typically use the term gaslighting, but the father fits the definition to a tee as described in this book. Jill had the bravery to endure what few do- to choose the difficult path and expose the frankly disgusting practices of the family and the network in terms of invasion of privacy, fair compensation for work, and much more. Despite losing contact with most of her formerly tight-knit family, Jill chose to (according to her) stand on the truth and face the consequences that would bring her relationship with her family. Jill and Derick did an excellent job writing this book. It is very clear and captures every detail relevant to their situation in stunning emotion. After reading it is difficult not to feel empathy for them financially, mentally, and spiritually. Well worth the read! Review: Beautifully written memoir - This may not have been the book many people hoped or feared, but I strongly feel it’s the book Jill needed to write for herself. Jill, Derick, and Craig did a beautiful job crafting a story that’s compassionate to all the major players involved, even those most people would agree don’t necessarily deserve that compassion. Josh’s crimes and the release of police reports is covered, but done so in a way that respects the privacy of her siblings, their families, and Jill herself - an effort I was very grateful to see as Jill and the other victims already suffered so much. The book is polished and well written, but still retains enough of Jill’s voice to feel authentically her. There were things that were glossed over or omitted (such as her husband’s Transphobic Twitter remarks, which I would have liked to see him take responsibility for), but I understand this wasn’t the book to cover those events as the overall narrative has more to do with how money, fame, and power can ruin people and families. All in all, this was a great read and Jill should feel proud of herself for putting in the hard work therapy requires to start to heal and get to a place where she could write this book. ## Images ![Counting the Cost - Image 1](https://m.media-amazon.com/images/I/81M84lPBRDL.jpg) ## Customer Reviews ### ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Well-Written and Impactful *by D***D on September 13, 2023* As a casual watcher of the Duggars it seemed there was always something beneath the veneer of positivity. When Jill and Derick broke away from the family and were seemingly ostracized despite her being a victim of abuse at the hands of a family member who- by all accounts- seemed to be welcome among the family, it seemed ever the more strange. In this book you get a deep insight into the innermost thoughts and emotions of a daughter initially desperate to please her parents and maintain the family image who suddenly realizes the family has little regard for her as an individual. The abuse she suffered as a child is unfortunately- according to the book- compounded by emotional and mental abuse at the hands of her father. Bent on garnering more fame and more money at the expense of his children, her father put her in an un-winnable situation. Rejoin the family fold and hold her tongue or speak the truth and be ostracized within the family and portrayed as a money-hungry misfit. I don’t typically use the term gaslighting, but the father fits the definition to a tee as described in this book. Jill had the bravery to endure what few do- to choose the difficult path and expose the frankly disgusting practices of the family and the network in terms of invasion of privacy, fair compensation for work, and much more. Despite losing contact with most of her formerly tight-knit family, Jill chose to (according to her) stand on the truth and face the consequences that would bring her relationship with her family. Jill and Derick did an excellent job writing this book. It is very clear and captures every detail relevant to their situation in stunning emotion. After reading it is difficult not to feel empathy for them financially, mentally, and spiritually. Well worth the read! ### ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Beautifully written memoir *by H***L on September 13, 2023* This may not have been the book many people hoped or feared, but I strongly feel it’s the book Jill needed to write for herself. Jill, Derick, and Craig did a beautiful job crafting a story that’s compassionate to all the major players involved, even those most people would agree don’t necessarily deserve that compassion. Josh’s crimes and the release of police reports is covered, but done so in a way that respects the privacy of her siblings, their families, and Jill herself - an effort I was very grateful to see as Jill and the other victims already suffered so much. The book is polished and well written, but still retains enough of Jill’s voice to feel authentically her. There were things that were glossed over or omitted (such as her husband’s Transphobic Twitter remarks, which I would have liked to see him take responsibility for), but I understand this wasn’t the book to cover those events as the overall narrative has more to do with how money, fame, and power can ruin people and families. All in all, this was a great read and Jill should feel proud of herself for putting in the hard work therapy requires to start to heal and get to a place where she could write this book. ### ⭐⭐⭐⭐ A life lived and trauma experienced in the public eye *by K***S on September 15, 2023* Jill Duggar writes in the afterward that this book was NOT about trying to shame her family. I’m impressed with the balance she’s found here, because in between the stories of manipulation and lack of privacy and trauma, she makes sure to mention many, many times how much she loves her family, how happy she was as a child, and how grateful she is for all of the GOOD things that came out of being a “TV family”. Yes, you can see hints of the fear that would be used as a lever more and more, the deep-seated desire to have everyone’s approval, the almost constant reminders that women had to be chaste and conservatively dressed and not do anything to tempt men to behave badly. But she also has so many good memories of growing up, and she was quite proud of the idea that the Duggar’s TV appearance were showing millions of people how to live a good Christian life. The pressure of having every single significant moment of her life filmed by and for strangers (most especially her courtship and marriage) built up so gradually that she couldn’t allow herself to believe how exhausting all of it was. It’s amazing how a family that lived so much in the public eye was able to keep so many secrets. Jill doesn’t go into a lot of detail about her brother Josh’s crimes, for good reason. The initial acts were horrible, but having the whole world know about them was even worse. To me it looks like the way it was dealt with was what caused so much of Jill’s trauma. She was terrified when talking with the authorities as a child, because she thought anything she said might mean being taken away from her family forever and it would all be her fault. Having the report illegally released to the public (by InTouch, Bauer, Kathy O’Kelley, Ernest Cate, the city of Springdale, the Washington County Sheriff’s Office and Rick Hoyte – Jill makes sure to list out the responsible people at every opportunity, and now I will too) victimized her all over again, and then feeling the pressure to stand up and DEFEND her brother in an interview made her physically ill. The rage that she eventually feels about all of this is entirely justified; It seems like every time her life reached some kind of equilibrium, Josh would do ONE MORE THING to be called out, or sent away to be “cured”, or arrested. And it was always up to the victims, his own sisters, to “protect” the family. When Jill reports of tearfully telling her father that he treats her worse than he treats her “pedophile brother”, it’s hard to argue with that. Jill still loves her father, but the book shows how she’s had to realize how harmful his version of Christianity has been to her, how much he used her for their family’s success, and how much he’s berated and guilt-tripped her into doing what he thinks is best. The most surprising part of this book to me was the fact that it was Jill’s father who arranged for her to meet Derek - with the eventual plan of having her safely married off - only for Derek to see what was happening to his wife and be the person brave enough to stand up and say “NONE OF THIS IS OKAY.” Jill’s love for Derek comes shining through on every page, even when his and her resistance makes her father more angry and threatening and manipulative. Jill and Derek are trying to live their lives and help others, and they’re constantly butting heads with a man who does things like sabotage their attempts to join a mission because he won’t release Jill from her TV contract, most likely because to do that will mean admitting that he tricked Jill into signing a contract in the first place, or that he’s been lying about how much his children have been paid, and how much they SHOULD have been paid for putting their lives on TV. The conflicts are nail-biting, and the run-ins with paparazzi and Jill’s almost-fatal pregnancy are harrowing, but I still honestly enjoyed the book as a whole. It’s a super fast read that doesn’t wallow in misery or try to paint everything in pastel colors. I hope writing this was therapeutic for Jill, a way to get straight in her head what was done to her, what she did end up getting out of it, and the fact that she actually DESERVES to be happy even if she’s not following the brand of Christianity her family has been pushing. I also hope that other people who have gone through a similar brand of cult/family dynamics will get something out of this as well. --- ## Why Shop on Desertcart? - 🛒 **Trusted by 1.3+ Million Shoppers** — Serving international shoppers since 2016 - 🌍 **Shop Globally** — Access 737+ million products across 21 categories - 💰 **No Hidden Fees** — All customs, duties, and taxes included in the price - 🔄 **15-Day Free Returns** — Hassle-free returns (30 days for PRO members) - 🔒 **Secure Payments** — Trusted payment options with buyer protection - ⭐ **TrustPilot Rated 4.5/5** — Based on 8,000+ happy customer reviews **Shop now:** [https://www.desertcart.co.uk/products/540731058-counting-the-cost](https://www.desertcart.co.uk/products/540731058-counting-the-cost) --- *Product available on Desertcart United Kingdom* *Store origin: GB* *Last updated: 2026-05-17*