Kill Switch (Devil's Night)

"She was mine. In our secluded, secret little world, she was mine. I wanted to watch her dance, and I wanted to steal her away a thousand more times to feel her excitement and fear and live through how vulnerable and sweet she was, but... I wanted to keep her happy, pure, and innocent, too. I didn't want to ruin her." This read through was just as profound as the last read through. I wondered if listening via an audiobook would throw me off but it actually fit really well for this book. Damon is a true anti hero. Villain of the prior two books with what seemed like a bleak chance of coming back. I mean he went to jail for sleeping with Winter while she was underage, almost killed his best friend by drowning him, attempted to hurt Rika and although his intentions were good he completely abused Banks during her most formative years. And that's not even close to the full list, just some of his more notable abuses. I knew we were building up to his book in both Corrupt and Hideaway but I truly wondered if he could be redeemed. I can't really say he was redeemed but honestly I don't care. Damon was still the same man he was in the prior two books. His morals are undoubtedly questionable, he doesn't care much for justifications and he shames those around him to mask his own pain. Even still, I adore Damon. He'd probably get rid of me for characterizing him with such a fluffy word but he is such a complex and deep character. Through flashbacks we start to understand why Damon is the way he is but without excusing his behavior. Again, this is a dark romance so if you are looking for hero's or redeemable villains this might not be the book for you. "Being with him was like dancing. Dancing with death." Okay so Rika in Corrupt was whatever, Banks in Hideaway is my ultimate girl crush but Winter, phew I forgot just how incredible Winter is. Winter is pure and innocent and strong of mind but she didn't stand a chance with Damon and yet she did. Winter is blind and so she literally sees/doesn't see the world differently than most of us. Damon is the reason Winter is blind. I love that her disability wasn't sugarcoated. Damon wanted to hurt Winter and Winter wanted to be loved and couldn't rid herself of a time when Damon gave everything good in himself to her. Winter understood Damon in a way no one else did and in a sense, Winter was Damon's peace even though he was her storm. “He made himself the cure, which wouldn’t have been necessary if he hadn’t also created the disease.” The passion and connection between Damon and Winter was undeniable, it was everything I wanted when I read Corrupt and felt Michael and Rika lacked. Their connection was toxic but it was also healing. Damon was depraved, by far the worst of the horsemen, but then we also saw how he was towards Winter while they were together. We also saw it in his interactions with Banks, Rika and Will. Damon is wired differently and he doesn't connect the way most of us do due to his trauma in his childhood. I could go on and on about this book because of all the complexities and connections but at the core is a traumatic love story filled with depraved men growing up from the boys they once were, and the women who love them despite their depravity. “Because pain in the body quiets the pain in the head. It feels good, like a kill switch for your brain.”

Kill Switch is the third book in the Devil's Night Series. Each story in this series includes the "Four Horseman," (Michael, Kai, Damon and Will;) has a large plot that includes these central characters, and a smaller plot that focuses on one of the horseman and the woman that he has a love/hate obsession with. Therefore, it is highly recommended that you read these books in order, so that you are not lost. Kill Switch is Damon and Winter's story. These two character's have a long, dark and fascinating history with one another. They met when she was just eight and he was eleven years old. Throughout the years, interest, fascination, attraction, and temptation, have turned in to obsession, seduction, and rage; due to a variety of circumstances that were out of their control for the most part. Damon is the most twisted and disturbing of the four horseman. However, we learn the reasons behind his dark ways. Little by little, we see a softer side and vulnerability that Winter soley brings out in Damon. I thought it was great how Ms. Douglas gave Damon's character so many complex layers. It added dimension and made his character interesting and realistic. I loved how loyal, protective, and devoted he was to those he cared about. With Winter, we see her strength, perseverance, resilience, and gutsiness. She can be vulnerable, as well as feisty. She doesn't let anyone run all over her, and that was a huge part of her appeal to Damon. I loved her character! The plot of Kill Switch was slow-paced in certain areas, and fast-paced in others. I especially loved the ending, and all of the exciting and unexpected plot twists! The story delivered a variety of different elements. There were parts that were sexy, as well as suspenseful, and emotional, which added to the ebb and flow of the story. A word of caution, this story is written for mature audiences and has dark and explicit erotic elements. This is not a "vanilla," romance, so if that is not your "thing," then this story is not for you. It was wonderful being reunited with all of the characters from the previous books in the series, and I am really looking forward to getting Will's story next. The teaser for his story had me dying to get my hands on it right now!!! The Devil's Night Series is unique and unlike anything I've ever read before. I have enjoyed all of these books immensely, and am a total fan girl for everything written by Penelope Douglas!

Staat nog op mijn TBR, maar het boek werd netjes geleverd zonder beschadigingen. Goede kwaliteit van papier en kaft. Ziet er goed uit naast de andere delen.

Oh, my God… Didn’t expect that at all. My favorite book from the series and my favorite couple.

Also dieser Teil ist meiner Meinung nach der heftigste aus der ‚Devils Night‘-Reihe. Die Story ist einfach wahnsinnig emotional, mit einigen Überraschungen und Kehrtwendungen und extrem spannend. Ich hab das Buch regelrecht verschlungen. Nachdem ich Hideaway auf Deutsch beendet hab, konnte ich nicht länger warten und hab Kill Switch auf Englisch gelesen. Die Gegenwart und Vergangenheit wird abwechselnd von Damon und Winter erzählt, aber man kommt super mit, trotz des ständigen Switchen. Die Beziehung zwischen Damon und Winter ist wirklich einzigartig, wenn auch oft extrem toxisch und sehr schwierig. Man konnte viel aus Damons extremer Kindheit erfahren, und die Parts sind schon echt hart, vorallem für mich als Mama zu lesen. Also unbedingt die TW beachten! Das Geschehene rechtfertigt nicht Damons Verhalten in den vorherigen Teilen, man konnte es aber durchaus nachvollziehen weshalb er so agiert hat. Zum Ende hin passieren noch so viele Dinge, womit ich null gerechnet hab. Also die Spannung bleibt auf jeden Fall bis zum Schluss bestehen. Es flossen sogar ein paar Tränchen🥲 Ich freue mich schon drauf, ‚Nightfall‘ zu lesen, hebe es mir aber noch ein wenig auf. Ich muss erstmal ‚Kill Switch‘ verarbeiten😅 Also ne ganz klare Leseempfehlung von mir ❤️

The book was slightly damaged when it arrived.

It has unexpected twists and really loved the roles of MMC and FMC I really want a paperback to read it as much as I want